It's funny, you know (well, not funny "ha, ha" but funny, odd), how after a series of disappointments you tell yourself not to get your hopes up. That way you won't feel so crushed if things don't work out. And yet, God created us as a people of hope. It's at the very core of our beings. God forbid should we actually kill that hope within us! "To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory," Colossians 1:27 (NIV).
That's the challenge, isn't it? Remaining pliable when every instinct says to "toughen up, build a wall." It's impossible to remain vulnerable but not beaten, without the Lord. He's always calling us to stretch, to open up, to risk, to give...to love.
Doug has another interview today at 1 for a position he is well equipped to do. We don't yet know what it pays, and that is the key. He is excited about it and so am I, kinda. I guess I'm self-protecting, which is the same as not trusting.
I've been concerned about school starting in two weeks and how we'll pay for my daughter's books (much less dorm room essentials, and school clothes and supplies for both her and her brother). A few books have shown up in the used realm, and I've snatched them up so fast your head would spin. But there are still some left to buy new because 1) the latest edition is absolutely necessary (ha!) and 2) it's for a class exclusive to this school. Note the sarcasm - I see it as a gift, but God - not so much. Still, He is faithful. I just received a call from my mom saying she was sending a check to help. She's a great mom!
This week the kids are at church camp. God was faithful there, too. Roxanne is interning, which paid for her trip, and Zach got a scholarship. YAY! I know God has amazing things for them this week and I'm excited to see it! I hate missing camp, but it just wasn't possible this year. I love family camp!
Well, that's all the news from Lake Wobegone. Pray for Doug today, please!
3 comments:
Trust me, I understand. Whole lot of self-protecting going on around here in the last twelve months. Doug and this job are in my prayers. I know what this means.
Rob started his third new job in a year, last Monday. And like you, I'm just waiting for the axe to fall.
I need to get it all into perspective and learn to trust again. Too many shocks and disappointments in too short a time but I'm not going to quit trying to put that trust where it belongs.
Praying for Doug and that job....
Hugs,
Diane
Oh Mombo, I am praying about your husband's job. Am also praying God gives you some rest from so much you're carrying right now.
I still believe if we do the best we can with whatever lands in our lives, God will more than make up for any shortages. But know that I am praying.
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