Friday, June 30, 2006

Timing - God's and Mine

Well, I had read my friend Sarah's blog and commented on her Thursday Thirteen of Thankfulness. How I needed to be more thankful, yada, yada, yada. No, I did mean it, but don't we all say things like that and then move on? Just a few short hours later, my husband gives me some news that absolutely yanks the rug out from under me. Wow! I mean it seemed like things were finally falling into place on our move to Tulsa and then what we thought was His provision evaporated like nail polish remover. Stunned silence, then tears, then extreme irritability as our 13 yr. old son let the two stupidest dogs known to mankind escape the yard and head to points unknown. Since our house is absolutely overrun with people, I had to escape to even think straight.

Yes we found the dogs - rah.

So I hopped into the minivan with the smartest dog known to mankind and hit the road to talk it out with God. Struggling valiantly to maintain a right attitude, I committed to seeing Him as my source, and not those who had just withdrawn from the picture. How faithful is God? What came to mind was the classic and never-fails-to-bring-tears song "Praise the Lord" by the Imperials. I sang it to myself and Joe (curled up in the passenger's seat) and headed to Long John Silver's for some comfort grease. "When you're up against a struggle, that shatters all your dreams. And your hopes have been cruelly crushed by Satan's manifested schemes. When you feel the urge within you to submit to earthly fears. Don't let the faith you're standing in seem to disappear. Praise the Lord." O.K. I get it.

So here are my Thursday Thirteen:
1. Even when we are faithless - God is faithful. He considers my weakness and sends me comfort in my despair. He lets me be angry with Him and waits for me to humble myself and lay down my "rights" for His plan.
2. Joe - the greatest dog ever. 'nuf said.
3. Chocolate - surely God's manifest presence in time of need. I hope that's not disrespectful.
4. Diet Coke - I never thought I'd like it, but now I'm hooked.
5. My son who fixes me a Diet Coke, just the way I like it, because he can tell I need some lovin'. Also he rubs my poor diabetic feet almost nightly. Truly makes up for the 13 yr. old arguing.
6. My husband who told me he wrote down all his negative feelings about this "revoltin' development" and then threw them away. Amazing progress for this man and a real encouragement to me. I'll tell you about it sometime.
7. The Internet - I couldn't wait for the kids to vacate so I could get all this out of my system. I might actually sleep tonite.
8. My 17 yr. old daughter who regularly makes brownies - from scratch! - for me. She has an amazing secret recipe that soothes every stress.
9. Music - I do counseling, I am a singer. It is the expression of every emotion I have and I have an encyclopedic catalog of songs that never fails to produce just the right vehicle for those emotions. I'll sing for you at the drop of a hat, or even a few flakes of dandruff.
10. My 20 yr. old daughter - even though we are struggling through a tough transition time.
11. MomTime. What a godsend these women have been to me! I am amazed that they allow me to be a part of this group of incredible women. I just hope that my comic relief is sufficient to keep my place at the table and the board games.
12. Solitaire - multiple forms that keep the OCD in check.
13. Bathtubs and Escape Literature - I just finished my book and am casting about for something else to read. And yes, I am caught up on my Bible reading - It's a Miracle!


Blessed Beyond Measure said...

Hi there, Sarah sent me here. I so apologize that I've forgotten your first name (likely my age...) but I do remember meeting YOU at Momtime; hope that counts for more. So I was supposed to tell you the politically incorrect way to do a Thursday Thirteen post and see youve already done it; good for you, being correct is overrated. And I loved it, and am confident I'm going to love reading whatever you put out there - you are about as real as they get and that will cover anything politically incorrect you might come up with (that I havent already done). Subscribing right this minute. Am I your first? I won't be your last, thats for sure. Welcome to the blogging world - its good for whatever ails you. xoxoxo

Barb said...

My sister Bev may be first but I'm definitely second! "Yes, we found the dogs - rah" and "headed to Long John Silver's for some comfort grease." I'm hooked! I'm sorry about your bad news. Stay positive - He has his reasons.

Brenda said...

I found your blog through Bev, and I'm definitely coming back.

I loved your unenthusiatic cheer:
"Yes we found the dogs - rah." That cracked me up.

Welcome to blogland!

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

L, I'm going crazy trying to figure out what happened--but I'll pray for you until I hear. (And then I'll keep on praying.)

I love so many things about this post! Mostly, I'm just thankful for you, that I met you through Lisa and MT. God knew we'd need our group when we started going through all the things our group members have gone through over the past year. What a great support. I'm sending you a hug via Blogger right now . . .

Diane said...

Hi, here by way of Bev and Sarah. :-)

Nice tameetcha, friend. You're on my list of favorites, too, and I'm adding you to my Bloglines. Welcome to blogging, and I think you'll find that for the most part, we're a pretty good group of people. Some of us are good for a laugh, some for inspiration, some for recipes, some for pretty photos, and some a combination of all those at different times. ;-)

mombo said...

How exciting that people respond! I feel so validated! I don't even know how to subscribe yet. Or how to post a picture. Or whose (uh...I mean which) picture to put up. Bev, I think you have the right idea. Include a puppy and you'll always look good. THanks to all who responded, I'm pretty verklempt all day and my dog knows something's up. At least I got a good haircut today.

Addie said...

Found you through Bev. LOVE your 13. Amazing how you wrote this after the revoltin' development. I know I'm a day late, but I'm hoping that writing out what you are thankful for, really did help you to sleep last night.

And tonight for that matter, because I'm up at a ridiculously late hour! :)